Too Long Too Short

Holy cow it’s so nice to have internet back. I have missed writing so much. You are too good to me to keep reading this... if you have all this time. What a mess life is right now; in a totally good, scary, crazy, fun, daunting way. Button had his first Halloween and Thanksgiving and I am just itching to photo dump the hecks out of this hear blog. Oh yes, it is super ridiculously late but whatever, it's my blog and I'm one of "those" moms so you can bet your bottom dollar I’m ‘a share them anyways... maybe just a little less to ease the burn. Ha. Anyways, we're in DC now. For the first time in my life, I don't live in Virginia! How did that happen?!

I can't stop thinking how blessed we are to have seen so many diverse places and people and how amazing our lives have been but a part of me urns, no BURNS for a simple life. An old county home with a wraparound porch; children (many children) playing in the yard and garden, chickens chatting away at one another, long days and longer country nights, a fireplace, a house I can truly make my own, a place we can settle in, make memories, and forget about crazy, adventitious days gone by. I burn for a place to create memories from years to years with my baby (and all the babies to come to God willing).

I am not ungrateful for these blessing we have been given. I will take them in; cherish them for some time from now I know it will not be the same. I may never have the opportunity to spend hours at the botanical garden just walking from flower to flower letting Button touch, smell, and learn from each unique plant. I may never be able to again sit on the steps of the reflection pool, staring at our great capital while having lunch with my Darling. Time is fleeting. I know that now more than ever as I watch Button change and grow into his own little person. So recent was it that he was barely the size of my arm; weak, dependent. Now I look at him and see him not my little baby but who he is on his own and the realization that soon, too soon, he will be even more so. I am happy for this in a way yet know that this is it. This is all the time I get. I want to catch these moments like little fireflies and keep then, glowing, in a jar forever. My little pets.  I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings; while I dream of our future and cling to the present. I will share more of our holidays soon my friends. It has been too long and I miss you.