I miss writing. I have so much on my heart right now and not enough words to say them.
We lost our third baby. I was five weeks and 4 days along and not even ready to open up and really tell people we were expecting but my heart is grieving... my body is hurting and grieving... and it will take time. Time to feel again, to not look at my son with longing sad eyes and dream of days that will not be. Two children, I will never have, missing from our family photos. Two siblings, my son will never know or play with. I can't type it. Not now. I can't see through tear stained eyes. But I am not gone. Just grieving.
We lost our third baby. I was five weeks and 4 days along and not even ready to open up and really tell people we were expecting but my heart is grieving... my body is hurting and grieving... and it will take time. Time to feel again, to not look at my son with longing sad eyes and dream of days that will not be. Two children, I will never have, missing from our family photos. Two siblings, my son will never know or play with. I can't type it. Not now. I can't see through tear stained eyes. But I am not gone. Just grieving.
So sorry, honey. You know I'm here if you need to call.
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