Friday, April 1, 2016

Colorful Living

Within the last week Hubby and I have really been trying to jump start our healthier living. You see... about six months ago I was pretty much the only one who worked out in our house and even that was about once or twice a week... then I got pregnant again and we moved. Needless to say, our eating habits have been the only "healthy" habits we have. Since the saying goes "eat healthy and exerciser" to stay fit and healthy, we figured, only doing half the saying is only 50% better then those doing nothing. not good. So, to jump start our better living (and to put the excises behind us, you know, BEFORE we have another little one to add to the mix) we signed up for the Color run for our second year in a row!


We had so much fun. I was bumbed the photographers did get a lot of us and the quality is kind of low but, hay, my camera didn't get ruined since I left it at home, and they did get at least one of all of us together.




We picked some shades up for Little man so the powder wouldn't get in his eyes this time around and, though he was not a fan of them squirting it right in his face still, I think he did a lot better this time around. Plus, he looks super cute in them. ha. He said his favorite part was the tropical scented bubbles they had though out the run too. I wish I got some of him playing in the bubbles but, alas, we spent our time in the moment and maybe that was better anyways.


After our 5k we decided to not slow down our momentum. We joined a gym  Monday with an awesome kids program and have gone every day this week but once! While I'm taking it easy during my pregnancy, I am already feeling more energized and excited for our families future health. So to that, happy, healthy, colorful, and fun living!

Friday, March 11, 2016

Birthday Boy

Little Man is super into trains as of late. Since moving to TX, we really don't have many (read any) friends or such here so, we kept his birthday pretty simply. We decided to ride the train to the zoo, see the animals, and ride kiddy train they have there.

We saw a lot less of the animals this time around but, since we go often, it was nice to just let Little Man do whatever his little heart desired.


Which, mostly involved feeding the birds in the bird house, petting giraffes, and a whole lot of playing in the water at the children's zoo.


Happy third birthday Little Man.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Learning to Feel Good

As the days go on, I realize more and more how thin my patience has become with Little Man. He is changing, growing, testing his limits and mommy as well. I am pregnant, tired, and pushed to my tipping point just about every day. There are boxes unpacked after a month of receiving our shipment of all our belongings. Our dream of getting a house is, yet again, put on hold. Most day the floors are not swept and crumbs on the tables. That drives me crazy. But I have learned something in the mist of all this. Something I am trying so hard to lean on each day. I have found that stress is so inward. We cause it and then create it. I am selfish. saying that makes a burn in my throat.
On the days I put my son first, my baby first, my husband and house first, those days feel better. I feel better. Not because I succeeded at something amazing or new or even that I was applauded for my work, but, because, despite what I have read and the media tells me, I am made to love. Not to love myself but others. In honesty, the days that I "take time for me" or spend all day complaining and moping about how hard life is, those are the worst days. They are the days my house suffers, my son suffers and I suffer too.
I am, slowly, learning that its not putting me first that will ever make me feel the way I long for. It will never refresh me as much as a hug with my son or sitting down doing school work with him. It will never bring me the desires I so long for. Yet, like a pig drawn to dirt, I go back to the computer, the me time to escape in a book or outing. I'm not saying those things don't have their place or are not fun, they are, that is why we do them, that is why I do them, but it is a fleeting feeling, a very fleeting spark of joy. It is not the same as when I spend a hard hour "playing" with a three year old or standing in a tinny kitchen cooking with the hubby while telling Little Man, for the seventh time, to stay out of the kitchen. In those moments I am selfish. I want to be done. I am board. But THOSE moments are what I grasp at each night as I lay in bed and think about my day. THOSE moments are what I will remember of my life, my family, when I close my eyes. They are the ones that bring me real joy, real gratification. Why? because we are made to love others. we are designed to put them first, even in the moments that feel hard right then, right now. My patience has become so thin and I am sorry for it. Sorry that I have tried so many earthy things to feed a desire that only giving up myself could ever fulfill. Sorry that I had allowed myself to fall into some sad human lie that "taking time for me" is what would make me feel happiest. Because, its not. No matter what others will say. That is the last thing I need to feel good, fufilled, useful and loved. What we need is selflessness, to remind ourselves that, yes, in that moment it may feel like the pressure is rising but that is how a diamond is made. That more "me" will just make me crave more me not be renewed. Only giving up, giving to others and pushing though the now, the momentary displeasure will bring long term, real gratification. That is what I have learned.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Photo Shoot

I finally was able to figure out the scanner. It only took two weeks!-.- So, without further wait, Our second Little Man's first photos shoot!




Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Oh boy!

We found out the gender last week and couldn't wait to share it with everyone one... including Button!

We are having a baby.....

BOY!!!


Friday, January 1, 2016

New Prospects

Merry Christmas and happy New year! We made it, friends! We made it to Texas from Washington DC and are settling in nicely. We are just one step closer to our dreams of homesteading! I can not wait to see what this year may bring (a house I hope) but I know it will be blessed. 2016 already looks so promising with the dreams of a homestead on land, a baby on the way, and a whole new state to explore. We can not wait to share the adventure with you all! <3

And, because I can't leave without some photos... here is a bit from our holiday.



Thursday, October 29, 2015

Positive

This path is laden with past regrets and what ifs, it is a battle; One that I have lost before. This time is different but so much the same. The fear echos in the deepest parts of me where I push them back, focus on the now, on the here, on my son and this beautiful thing we call family and life. This time I choose to embrace it. Will I feel the same tomorrow, maybe not but for now I am here, taking it in. I am treating each day as my first (and last) and would I want those I love to know of our child, even unborn if I died today. I would. So, today they will know. That is not the path for everyone. It is the path for us. It is being brave. Hoping, praying, and trusting the the maybes, the designers we have. it's not letting the woes of tomorrow bring us down today. Foolish? some might say so but we like to think we are strong. Strong for our child and strong for our own sake. Thank you for embracing that strength with us. Does a positive mean positively. I have learned it doesn't always but we are stepping out in faith. I am positive that for today, I have my baby, my family, my love. Thank you for being positive with us. <3